I have always done my best to be a good person.
I work hard, I fight for the things I believe in and I try to always see the positive in situations.
I consider myself to be flexible and considerate of others, but, most of all, passionate in every venture that I pursue.
But despite all of these positive qualities, I often find myself getting knocked down.
I wear my heart on my sleeve, and anyone who knows me knows that.
Sometimes, I don’t know if that’s such a good thing.
Because people know how considerate, passionate and loyal I am, they sometimes try to use those qualities against me.
For example, if people want to hurt me or use me to get something that they want, they know right where to strike: at one of my passions.
Whether that passion be a project, a job, an experience or even a person, like a professor, employer, friend or even a family member, people find a way to hit me right where it hurts.
And they know what they’re doing.
It’s frustrating to me because I am such an open book; I generally trust people to be morally sound and compassionate.
But time and time again, I am let down.
I’m not going to lie; I’ve dealt with a lot of betrayal in my life.
I’d like to say that it gets easier to deal with the more it happens, but each time I still find myself feeling shocked and saddened by the disloyalty.
It’s especially discouraging when I think I know someone’s intentions, and then they turn on me.
It makes me not want to be so trusting and so open.
However, I am who I am, and that’s not going to change.
I’ll still do my best to be a good person.
I’ll still work hard and fight for the things I believe in.
I’ll still be considerate of others and passionate about everything I do.
I’ll try my best to stay positive and be flexible.
And I’ll continue working on acceptance and forgiveness, as well.
